All By Myself...

Yep, that is definitely my theme song every Valentine's Day.

So, I HATE Valentine's Day. And I know people want to say stuff like...

• "Think of it as Singles-Awareness Day!"
• "You're just mad because you don't have anybody."
• "Awww, just don't think about it ok?"
• "I don't really celebrate it really, so it's not really a big deal to me."
• "Don't make such a big deal out of it. GOSH!"
  

But I just can't listen to any of this reasoning. I hate Valentine's Day.

It makes me feel more alone and lonesome than I already feel. It makes me feel like I'll never have anybody EVER. And it just sucks. I dread Valentine's Day every year because I know that I'll never have a Valentine. EVER. Except for those sappy cards that you gave out in Elementary School that everyone threw away immediately when they found candy inside of them.

Valentine's Day is just a way for life to point at me and go, "HAHA, DANIEL, You suck at relationships and are going to be alone and without love for the rest of your life!!" And as Valentine's Days come and go year after year, I can't help think that this is the case.

I strive for love, I really do. And it seems like recently I'm back on the road to getting my heart broken and I hate it.

Whenever I see couples together, and kiss and say how much they love each other, it pains me because I know I'll NEVER HAVE THAT. No matter how much I look, beg, or plead I never will. That's a very fatalistic way to look at Valentine's Day I know, but still, at this rate I go I know I'll never have that love.

I just want someone that I can say "I love you" to and them say "I love you too," and truly mean it. Not any of that friendly "I love you" stuff....

Yeah, I know that sounds very cliche and Disney, but who doesn't want a fairy tale relationship like that? Maybe it's just me, I don't know.

All I know is, I will be thankful as all get out once today is over, because by the end of today I promise I will have found Eros (Cupid) and finally ripped him a new one for all of the pain and heartache I have endured in my life.

P.S. Tomorrow is Marvel VS Capcom 3 Day. However, I seem to be more focused on my struggle through Valentine's Day instead...