Save your drama for your mama!

Goodness! At least I had today off.

Hello y'all!

Well, today I went to all 5 of my classes and got bogged down with a ton of stuff, but mainly it's reading that I just need to go over. I'll probably head to the PCL tomorrow for a Greek Mythology study session. I need it. Can it be November? I want Thanksgiving, blackberry cobbler, and turkey with cranberry sauce. Jellied, not crushed please!

So yeah, about that downer post earlier... I was really depressed that day, whether it be from sugar loss, no food, or just depression in general, I don't know. What I do know is that I am susceptible to depression. I went to a Psychiatrist (after "the debacle"), and they said I was suffering from a little depression. I didn't know what happened, I was just in a slump for like the rest of my Junior Year. I didn't really like talking to anyone about it ("(his name) drama" as it was called), and if they brought it up, my heart would just sink. I never forgot about it, and I let it tug at my heart. I found myself singing sad songs and crying into my pillow late at night wanting it to end.

Then, more than a year after it happened, I bumped into him in the hallway. Usually at this point we just avoided each others' glares and kept walking like nothing happened at all. But this time, however, something was different. He said, "Hey DJ, (my nickname), I want to talk to you after school, sorry it took so long." My heart started beating faster and faster. I couldn't stop it. This was the closure I wanted, craved, and needed to be happy. Granted, I already had been somewhat over it throughout my Senior Year, which I accomplished so much during, be it All-State Band or Lead in the School Musical.

So I met him after school in the hallway, and we talked, talked, and talked until we couldn't anymore. Everything sorted out in the end, and we became friends again. However, as I talk to him on Facebook, I can't help but shake the feeling that there is still some sort of awkwardness between us two. We were best friends before that happened, so I guess it's like Lady Gaga says, "True friendship is like a mirror, you can fix it if it's broke, but you can still see the cracks in it's reflection."

Anyways, I hope I gave you some insight into some of my personal life, if you were interested! Hope y'all have marvelous weeks! Wish me luck on studying.