You know those times whenever everyone is giving you the same piece of advice, and your head is telling you ever single time to follow it, because it is being suggested by an overwhelming majority? Also, your heart is the only thing that stands between you and following the advice that is taken, because your heart doesn't want to let go?
I am definitely in one of those situations now.
Today wasn't one of my best days. I came back from a Japanese study session and felt so incredibly terrible about myself. I crawled into bed and took an hour long nap just so I could forget about the world for a brief second. I awoke around 7, the dining hall was already closed so I had no where to grab a bite, and I proceeded, like always, to post on Facebook how depressed I was. One of my really great friends then chatted me and told me to come over, and I did and she helped me feel a little better. We talked about the situation and I got the same piece of advice from her that I'd gotten from my roommate the day before.
I honestly don't know what to think right now.
As an aside, I'm totally friend zoning it up with this guy I like, I can already tell. Ah well, that's just me I suppose, I suck at telling people how I actually feel or just asking people out, but I am SO GOSH DARN PERFECT at making friends. I hate to sound so incredibly desperate, but can I please just like get lucky... just once?
Anyways, back to my situation. My head is telling me to follow the advice given to me by my friends, but I don't know what to think. I don't want to because my heart is telling me something completely different. And it hurts to think of it any other way. My friends were being perfectly logical in their reasoning, but my emotional self can't listen to reason half of the time and wants to follow my heart.
I'm ready to throw my hands up in the air and have a "Jesus Take the Wheel" moment, as I certainly can't do this on my own.
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