Ugh... Just Ugh.

Picture this:

You are walking along the yellow brick road to go see the wizard. You have your Ruby Slippers on and you are skipping in time to "We're Off to See the Wizard," whilst singing and having a merry little time. All of the sudden, OUT OF NOWHERE, the Wicked Witch of the West comes down and Hoe-slaps you right across the jaw so hard you are reeling for hours and hoping her Wickedness doesn't come back for seconds.

Yeah, funny image right? But that's how my life is right now. And no, this has nothing to do with school, school is going absolutely fine. I am on top of all of my work and ahead in some cases, so I'm all good with that. It's my personal/love life that ALWAYS seems like it wants to hoe slap me right across the face every time I think life is going my way. I hate it. This always happens to me, and I always let it intrude my thoughts and emotions at the wrong times. I just don't want this to continue on anymore with this dumb habit of my emotional psyche.

So, you are probably wondering what sort of dumb situation I'm in, that you could probably have wiggled yourself out of because you are just so amazing... Well...

GOOD. FOR. YOU.

I myself am not the best at all at personal affairs, and as avid readers of this blog know, I get hung up on these personal things VERY frequently.

Well, that's besides the point, anyways, the situation is as such....

I like someone. I have crushed on them hard. I am falling for this person. And I want to get myself out of this situation, because I know that getting hoe-slapped in the face by rejection and losing another friend to awkwardness isn't worth it... I can't put myself through those days of painstaking misery like last semester.

I hate myself for liking this person. I really do. I shouldn't hate myself for a crush, but I know that person doesn't want to be anything more than friends. It just pains me that every time I see that person, my heart skips a beat like something is magically going to happen that one day.

Well, WAKE UP AND SMELL THE COFFEE DANIEL, IT'S NOT.

I tell myself this every single time, but my naivete wins out and I think something magical like out of a Disney movie may happen... but it's not.

WHY WHY WHY must I crush on people that are hopeless for me? Let's face it, I myself am a pretty dumb dude. I mean come on, let's be honest here. I don't talk to the person that I'm being creeper towards in the first semester, and I am crushing over someone who doesn't feel the same way (which I'm pretty sure they don't [but I could be wrong, but I doubt it]), which makes me a loser.

I know I will find someone. SOMEDAY. SOMEWHERE. Yeah, that's all very nice and romantic, but romance just isn't working for me. It teases me with things I know I can never grasp no matter how long I run, sprint, or even dash with all of my strength. I strain to get back up and get in this race towards the finish, to overcome this obstacle of weakness, but I just can't... I feel like I should just lay down and give up. Romance just isn't for me, case closed. Might as well go to Med School, don't have to worry about that. xD

You know, sometimes I really wish I could just click my heels 3 times and wish all of my love related problems away, but I know that will never happen. So, as for now, I'm going to try to find a bat or something that I can nail the Wicked Witch with the next time she comes around, so I'm prepared to make sure my Ruby Slippers protect me from the "Love" that seems to be growing all too Wicked all of the sudden.